Friends Like These

So, I have finished a week at Man Met and the agency have actually already placed me somewhere else for next week. I'm kinda okay with this because it keeps things interesting and as it's in an office, it will be new skills. However, I am really gonna miss the wonderful Mel who has become such a fab friend over the last week. Some people just click don't they and she was definitely one of those, so lovely and easy to get on with and what not. So many more fun times for us in the future I think!!
I reckon I'm actually gonna miss pushing a little trolley around the pot holes and students..

Not too anxious about starting somewhere new right this moment though as my woooonderful pal Billing is coming to visit tomorrow and it has been far too long since we were reunited so I cannot put into words how excited I am to see her beautiful little face.

Sorry my posts are a bit short at the moment, our internet is down so I have to sit right at the wall of my brothers old room to use our neighbours internet!! (They are aware of this, I am not being a bad person)

Hope you've all had a good week!

Becca.

I Carried A Watermelon..

I posted over summer how much I was loving the watermelon inspired trends popping up so when I was making some things for Michele the other day, I thought I'd make myself a colourful tee to brighten up my wardrobe....

I'm so happy with how it turned out and can't wait to pair it with some black skinnies and my leather jacket or something!

What do you guys think?

Becca.

Hello Commuters With Yer Computers!

This Alan P quote has been in my head all day. I think it's because I miserably realised that I am now a commuter, a grown up. Wah. I have survived two days of work! No panic attacks, I mean, anxiety, but no actual breakdowns so that has to be progress!? I am pretty much a glorified tea lady and with my lack of coordination and what not results in me smashing mugs and getting stuck in pot holes but hey, I need pennies.  Standing up/walking around for 8 hours a day is not doing my cankles any favours though. After snapping all the ligaments in it years ago, it healed really badly and I've struggled with it since. I've only done two days and this is what I look like...

I usually have scrawny boney ankles so this is not healthy and super painful. Hopefully I can manage a couple of weeks and hope the agency finds me something else.

I had to go back to the doctors today after struggling with really low moods and things again so my tablets have been upped yet again. They really want to get me more stable because until then, there doesn't seem to be much hope of me really tackling everything and trying to be "normal" again so hopefully I'll start to level out soon. I can't even put into words how frustrating it can be to not have any control over your own mind sometimes. To know you should be okay and yet to be sat wanting nothing more than to cease to exist is just horrible and I really hope I can start to get more control soon. 

I'm off to soak in the bath and elevate my feet. Bangin!

Becca.

Family

Last night we went to good old Nino's for mum's birthday and it was lovely. The food and atmosphere never disappoint and it is always nice to get together with mum's brothers and co:)
Although I was too content with the food and conversation to take any photos, I did manage to get one of the epic cake, Chantelle's mum made for mum...

And here are a few of Maia being adorable as ever today..
I did not know it was possible to love someone that much!!

Also, I HAVE A JOB!! I start at 8am on Monday!! I am fuuullll on terrified!! But it's money. And it is normal hours so I can still have my weekends and evenings to see friends and what not! Yay. Mainly Soph:) Haha.
I am now going to eat far to much Indian food and judge X Factor contestants.

Becca.

Lime Crime Velvetines Red Velvet

After reading so many good things about Velvetines, I decided it was time to invest. I love a statement red lip, especially in Autumn/Winter but I am terrible with lippy and hate how easily they come off. I am now IN LOVE with this lip gloss. I cannot say enough how every girl needs to own velvetines. It is vegan so great for everyone and just so incredible. Although it is a lipgloss, once on your lips, it becomes a matte bright red. (the other shade Suedeberry seems to have pinkier tones but I do not own that one yet..:)) I am beyond impressed at it's staying power, I tried it out for the first time last night for mum's birthday meal; three courses and drinks later and it literally hadn't changed!! I don't think there is any other product out there that can say the same! It is amazing!! Although at £11.50, it isn't the cheapest lip product on the market, it is definitely worth every single penny and you can expect many more red lips in my photos from now on!

Have any of you tried any Lime Crime products? What did you think?

Becca.

All At Once..

Well, yesterday was a bit of a whirlwind! I think I was still shell-shocked when I woke up this morning! Mitch's dad kindly used his contacts to speak to a recruitment firm in Manchester who then spoke to me, asked for my CV and said they'd see what they could do. I just assumed it would be a couple of days or something before they got in touch but it was mere hours before I got a call back asking to come in for a registration meeting and that there was a job they thought I would be suited to. It was definitely better in a way that it happened so fast because I didn't have enough time to overthink things and totally freak out. I mean, I was absolutely petrified but I kind of had no option than to just go with the flow. The meeting went fine, I managed to control my nerves and speak like a normal human without crying or shaking or anything crazy. I am now awaiting an email confirming a trial/run-through for a job at Manchester Met University TOMORROW!! Crazy shit. And if that goes well, I could be starting work on Monday!! I'm trying so hard to stay calm, what's the worst that could happen right?! As long as I don't have a full on panic attack, I can do this! I am so excited that something positive is happening and that I could finally begin earning some pennies and what not but eeeek, I am so freaked out. Mind is going to be going a mile a minute until it is all sorted I think!!

I am fairly sure I'm just rambling now because my brain is all buzzy and I'm all twitchy.

How is your week going?

Becca.

Happy Birthday Mumma!!

As it is my mum's 60th today, I thought I would dedicate a little post full of love to the most wonderful woman ever. I don't even know where to start when talking about my mum, she is just amazing: no matter what, she just remains such an incredible person.
From me being an absolute disaster of a child, causing chaos, making a mess, injuring myself and just being "special", to January 2012, the lowest point of my life and the only thing stopping me from surrendering to the darkness being my love for her, she has been the one and only constant I can truly rely on.
She is like a best friend to me, not in some cheesy, cringey way, just because we have an absolute hoot together and I know she will always be there. I love that we have our own little jokes and mannerisms and routines although, now I'm living back at home, we are becoming two very odd little humans, it's fab! Hahaha.
I am so so so grateful that I have her and I hope to make her birthday as awesome as possible; A nice meal with the fam tonight, spa day and London trip in the near future, no gifts can make her see how special she is.

And so, gushing over: I Love You Mum, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Becca.

18+5

So, I turned 23 on Tuesday! So scary! But I refuse to feel old so I'm ignoring it haha.
I had my night out the other week so it was quite nice to just have a chilled day feeling all content and grateful. I am so appreciative of all the special people I have in my life; I recieved some of the cutest little things that were all so full of thought and love so thank you to absolutely anyone who made my day that little bit special.
Also thanks to the lovely Booba for cooking me tea and making my evening so full of giggles.

Here are a few snaps (including some lovely blurred affects mum's camera has decided to add to some...)

Becca.

LAST MINUTE

Registration interview for a recruitment agency has happened last minute. And although it is super positive and should result in work very soon. Sheer terror has taken overrrr!! I am glad it's last minute as I don't have very long to fret. On the other hand, there is an awful lot of fear in my little brain right now.
Positivity and fright are battling away. Hopefully I can stay calm enough to not come off as a total weirdo! vdsnknflbnflfd;nbf

I'm going to go and try make myself look respectable and potentially vomit.

Wish me luck!!

Becca.

POF.

It is my birthday eveeee!! Yay!!
And I am enjoying it like this...

The candles were off my lovely boy Mitch because he thought I'd love the smell. He was so right! They smell lush, "plum pleasure" yumyum.
And the Worlds Best Boss mug and bobble head Dwight are courtesy of thee greatest friend Heather Marie Ann Lord. I will dedicate a whole post to my The Office Kit soon!!
I know I opened them early but obviously Mitch was here last weekend and HLord is back at uni and unable to stop me muahahaha. And I was too excited.
I know I should probably be panicking at how old I am getting but I am currently too caught up in "IT'S MY BIRTHDAY TOMORROW excitement.

I hope all of your Monday's weren't too full of blues!

Becca.

The Road Between Us

Whilst at the library recently, I thought I'd go for something a little different and this novel by Nigel Farndal caught my eye. Split between telling the tale of Charles and Anselm; two lovers seperated by World War II and Edward and Hannah; a father returned from being held prisoner for eleven years in Afghanistan and his daughter; The Road Between Us is gripping and emotional. The Second World War is something that interests me in many ways, mainly the sheer horrific nature of the concentration camps. This book offered an insight into the only "work camp" in France, Anselm's punishment for being a homosexual and also narrates Charles's attempts to rescue his lover and all that happens on the way. This story of a love that crosses oceans and borders and withstands things that are almost incomprehensible (the word meatball will never be the same again..) Is so emotive and well told that you never give up hope for the two, it has been a while since I have rooted for someone as much as I have Charles and Anselm. Farndale very cleverly weaves this tale, with that of Charles's son in modern day; he has been held captive in Afghanistan for eleven years, pronounced dead, and finally returned to his young adult daughter a very different man to the dad who left. Although their tale is uncomfortable at times to read, Edwards return to a society and a life he does not quite understand is very poignant and something you feel as a reader you have to see through to the end.
At times, it seems slightly bizarre that these two stories are being told alongside one another, you do not see how they can connect, but Farndale does not disappoint in the end, you get your answers and are not left feeling unfulfilled.
It may be quite brutal at times, the humanity and emotion almost too much to bear, but this is definitely a novel I would recommend to anyone who has any interest in the war (both back then and now) and anyone who enjoys a journey into someone elses life and emotions. It is not a soppy romance in any way but it does tug at the heartstrings occasionally in a way that didn't make me want to gag or roll my eyes, Farndale hits the perfect balance of emotion and action and I am certainly going to be looking for more by him in the future.

Have you read any of Nigel Farndale's work? Can you recommend me any World War II related works?

Becca.

House Of Holland with Elegant Touch

I am a huge fan of anything Holland, mainly because he is such a genius when it comes to bold designs with beautiful fits and then a little bit because he is a Rossendale boy and I love that. His latest venture is in cahoots with Elegant Touch nails: a range of eight designs of press on nails available at Boots. They range from slightly subtle monochromes to in your face neons and I adore them all. Now, anyone will tell you that I cannot stand long nails, they freak me out and I don't know how people function with them, my nails are always cut short and I quiver at the thought of false nails. However, in the past, I have bought false nails and then cut them to size so that it just looks like nail varnish but it doesn't chip and stays perfect for as long as I want. I instantly knew I had to have some of Henry's nails even if I wasn't wearing them in the on trend stiletto style he intended. I have to say, they are really good, with a range of sizes, glue and a quality nail file included, you cannot go wrong with a set of these. They were super easy to apply and comfortable to wear, hopefully they will last as well! I strongly recommend these for any nail fans out there!

Have you tried any of Henry's new collection? What do you think?

Becca.

Recently..

I can't believe I haven't written anything in over a week! Bad Becca. But it has been a hectic kinda time so I do apologise. Last weekend I celebrated my birthday a bit early because Mitch was up and I wanted him to be involved:) (even though it resulted in him telling me I have a surprise but it isn't ready yet.. Grrr) It was so lovely to have him here again, we just chilled with an almighty Indian on Friday with mum, Ben and Chantelle which was lovely. On Saturday we did the rounds, visiting Kate and the beautiful Maia who has three whole teeth now and is too cute and too much fun to even put into words. Followed by dad and then Soph and Stanley.As much as I enjoy being busy and having so many fab people in my life, I am still not great at loads of interaction and stuff so it really exhausts me and I feel quite overwhelmed at times, but nothing an episode of the Office and a nap can't cure. Then it was time for a night out in Manchester with the gang which was as usual, a massive hoot. Font and Factory did not disappoint, nor did any of my pals who had me smiling, laughing and dancing the night away. Special mention to Kyle and Soph for the highlights of the evening:)
I ended up heading back down south for a few days with Mitch because as long as I have my laptop, job hunting can be done. It was nice to see Nick, Michele and the sausage doggies again and I now have a mini tie dye project and some dog sitting booked in. Yipee.
I don't know whether it was having such a hectic weekend or just my stupid brain in general, but for the majority of the week I was feeling so overwhelmed and low. I felt like I was drowning and just totally unable to do anything. It was so horrible. It becomes a massive battle to try and do anything, I have had absolutely no appetite and no desire to do anything, just no emotion or personality in general. It was so frustrating because I have no idea how to get over downers like that, they just take over and I suppose all I can do is keep trudging on but that can be really difficult too. I should be starting my new counselling soon so hopefully I will be able to ask for help about that then. Although my brain would have had me in a dark, quiet room for god knows how long, I had no choice but to face the world on Thursday because me and Chantelle had tickets to see Macklemore at the Apollo. I am sometimes really glad of things I can't back out of, although they may be really scary to begin with, they can be the jump start I need to not give up just yet. Macklemore was AWESOME. Such a great atmosphere. Crowds can be my nemesis but neither me or Chan were in a fit state to be battling our way to the front, it was nice to just chill at the back and soak it all in.
Friday also helped re-energise me a bit; an adventure out in to the Lake District with Soph. We took Max and went walking and ate gingerbread and pub lunches and giggled far too much. All the fresh air gave me that really nice sleepy feeling; not pure exhaustion but tierdness that comes from spending all day outside. Sleep is another thing that depression ruins for me because it can take forever to actually fall asleep because my brain just buzzes with all sorts of thoughts from the mundane to the terrifying. Then, even when I do sleep, nightmares and crazy dreams rule. One of the common side affects of anti-depressants is more vivid dreams and I had them pretty bad anyway so they can be really horrific now and I wake up from a sleep, I feel more knackered than when I shut my eyes. Bonkers and frustrating all in one. Even though this was the case as usual on Friday, it was quite nice to go to bed feeling sleepy for a change.
I am still job hunting with a vengence but also getting excited for my birthday on Tuesday because I am still a big kid at heart and then it's mumma's 60th on Friday! So hopefully I will have a week filled with as many positive vibes as possible!
I have been planning way more reviews and posts coming so I am really gonna try keep up with that and get back into the swing of things!

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Becca.