I have recently become aware of a horrible little anxiety trait that has started to rule my life. I cannot complete even the smallest of tasks without putting a time limit on it or being aware of the time. Now, this is a normal thing for people getting up, going to work etc etc and when in relation to a routine, not really a bad thing. However, I have started timing drinking my tea, having a bath, everything.
"So if this takes me 15 minutes then I have 3 and a half hours until I have to do that so I can do this for an hour and then.." and so on and so on.
It is making more anxious than ever and really starting to exhaust me. I know I said earlier this week that I am trying to draw the positives from anxiety ie. being more aware. But being hyper-sensitive the entire time you are awake is beyond draining. I am having heart palpatations even writing this post because the bath is filling slowly and I don't know how long it will all take. Someone please help me!!
Oh, a positive bit of inspiration I have just found; these absolutely gorgeous photos, they give me butterflies and make me kinda want to cry they are that beautiful.